stitchin...

....techno crafty LOVE

dreamin....

Just got this wonderful book in the mail today....

jumped on the web for a little search... as we do every now and then....
and now I'm going to take a look at this one tomorrow! :)

We've wanted one for sooo long!!
Jeff's been talking about his dream to buy them and fix them up since we first met. This ones pretty rough on the inside and could definitely use some color on the out... but the size and price are just the ticket!

I'm pretty excited!!!

She's 4 now

and she doesn't need me to push her swing anymore.

My Girls

Camilla is one month old now. In fact, as I type it is nearing the exact hour of her birth, just 30 days ago.

Strong labor contractions started around 8PM, we got to the hospital at about 10 and out she came at 10:52! A completely natural labor and delivery. I was astonished. My husband and I were both astonished! My first labor lasted 34 hours, with 2 hours of pushing... after 20 something hours of not dilating I finally agreed to Pitocin.. so it really goes without saying that this second experience was quite different.

And so far many things have been different than I expected.

I had been worried about the effect the baby might have on Aelyn or how she might react but honestly it has gone pretty smoothly. Not necessarily EASY, just smooth... like she was made to fit into us.. into our family. Another piece to our puzzle.
No, Aelyn's not exactly in love with the new baby, more like excepting of her existence...
But I can see the potential of love :)
I worried about how she might react to having to share our attentions but now she has the attention of a third party. Plus when I point out to her "look your sister is watching you" or "she loves to watch you dance and spin," Aelyn gets the greatest smile. And the baby truly does stare at her sister already!

Aelyn really wants to make Camilla laugh. She tries and Camilla just stares blankley. I tell her baby's this small can't do much of anything, they can't even laugh yet but that she will someday. Later Aelyn will ask me "She'll grow?" and "She'll laugh?" as if just to make sure and I imagine that when the gigling starts her baby sister will be her favorite audience.

Here's some photo's I took of the dancing princess yesterday. She was showing off her first tattoo and her current favorite dress-up.

 She's a bit harder to take pictures of cause all she wants to do is twirl :)

Finally the inspiration/idea for the photos of Camilla was not completely original.. there are many who have done similar things but this woman does it THE BEST, so if you haven't seen her work you must check it out. I can't wait to see her book.

Happy Weekend,
April

Meet Camilla

Born Thursday, April 21st at 10:52PM,

6 pounds and 13 ounces, 18 inches long.

All I can say is that I am truly overwhelmed with love and gratitude for another healthy, sweet, calm and beautiful baby girl!

Yep still pregnant.

Oh, and I ate the last of the cake this morning!

I ate cake for breakfast.

I'm not very good at waiting. I'm tired and irritable and difficult to live with.
Constantly cleaning, diving myself and Jeff crazy with all the nesting...

I have been trying to keep calm.
Really! I have.
Starting my days with gratitude lists and some quiet meditation. Listing my blessings and trying to keep my focus on them throughout the day. Trying hard to enjoy each day..  as it may be our last as a family of 3. But I'm just at the end of my rope. I am done. I'm done sharing my body and I am done with the unknowingness of it all.

So this morning I ate leftover cake for breakfast! and instead of writing a gratitude list I wrote down all of the questions.
All the things I wonder while waiting.

Now I'm going to let all those questions go for a bit and work on some fun little things that I started the other day. A pleasant little distraction by way of a new sewing project.

I'm going to keep busy with things that make me happy. Perhaps we'll go out to lunch at North Star and then power-walk some more.