Monday, April 18, 2011

I ate cake for breakfast.

I'm not very good at waiting. I'm tired and irritable and difficult to live with.
Constantly cleaning, diving myself and Jeff crazy with all the nesting...

I have been trying to keep calm.
Really! I have.
Starting my days with gratitude lists and some quiet meditation. Listing my blessings and trying to keep my focus on them throughout the day. Trying hard to enjoy each day..  as it may be our last as a family of 3. But I'm just at the end of my rope. I am done. I'm done sharing my body and I am done with the unknowingness of it all.

So this morning I ate leftover cake for breakfast! and instead of writing a gratitude list I wrote down all of the questions.
All the things I wonder while waiting.

Now I'm going to let all those questions go for a bit and work on some fun little things that I started the other day. A pleasant little distraction by way of a new sewing project.

I'm going to keep busy with things that make me happy. Perhaps we'll go out to lunch at North Star and then power-walk some more.

1 comment:

Suzanne said...

I am right behind you! So much harder sharing my body this time around. Maybe b/c I am chasing a 2 year old.
I admire you for sticking it out! Not many do that these days. Was Aelyn late? Falon was 2 days late...wondering when he'll decide to come!